24 February, 2010
So, how did any of this lead me to the path? This past summer, I ordered 3 books on a whim from Amazon dot com: Scott Cunningham's Guide for the Solitary Practitioner , The Complete Idiots Guide to Wicca and Witchcraft (an excellent book, believe it or not), and Buckland's Complete Book of Witchcraft. I was bored online and was searching through the recommendations and all three had come up (probably because of my purchases on Native American religions, but who knows?). So, I ordered them. And then I read. Like a maniac. Something finally clicked. Everything that I had been taught by family was in these books. All the morals I believed in, even the little herbal "tricks" my grandmother would use when we were sick, were in these books. I was stunned.
I finally felt comfortable enough to approach the subject with two close friends who were Wiccan. I asked them questions and I was given honest answers. Talking about the emptiness I'd been feeling for so long felt so wonderful. These were things I never thought anyone could understand, not even my therapist. I felt better. The missing puzzle pieces were right in front of me for years, but I'd ignored them. I'd come home.