26 February, 2010
This weekend I'm (hopefully) meeting with a group to celebrate the new full moon. I'm a bit nervous as I've never met anyone in this group in person. I took some advice and used meetup.com. They all seem nice from reading their e-mails and message board posts, but I'm unsure. I've never spoken with anyone in person about my beliefs besides my two friends. I'm nervous about them being all about showy rituals rather than actual worship. You hear stories about covens which is why I've played the part of a solitary. But I've grown tired of being alone. Although my husband is supportive of my beliefs, he does not wish to join me in them. I do have my two friends, but one of them lives rather far away and the other is dealing with her own personal problems, so it makes it hard to get together without her worrying about 70,000 other things.
How should I approach this? I plan on mainly observing when I'm with the group on Sunday. I just hope all goes well and I'm not weirded out by them. I wish I could stop being so nervous.